Send me the rain

Happy birthday to J and Danny! (:

Today's school isnt worth mentioning cos really it wasnt that good a time.

Anyway, it was after school that mattered. Here's it in pictures(:
FORMULA ONE GRAND PRIX :D
(I nearly went deaf man really its super duper loud! & Im sure now I can recognise a formula one car coming from miles away already!!! It was nice when they skidded and some minor crashes. Haha that made it interesting.)

The gods will throw the dice

Everyone should check out the catalogue "OUTSIDERS a diary of a young teen" on pullandbear.com cos its just so cool. I wish I could make scrapbooks like that.

Today was.. a mess? I dont know. 7 of us took pink form and left school. For various reasons whatsoever so that class was left w what, 15 people?Ha it was supposed to be lesser but then ya, oh well. Ate lunch at Long Johns' at TM (damn funny la) & then headed down to town w Justin and Chicky. Met up w my mother instead, she was having piano. Shopped around and stuff before heading home. Ya just like that.
My day w/o school. How happy you know.

All letters have been given out. Here's to the future.

The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low

Think about nothing

What a day.
My dropout form got torn up by Shuhua/Steffi/Jieying (damn) and attempts to get it again was ruined sigh. Dont ask me why Im taking the form la isnt the answer very darn obvious? Mdm Yang was so obvious so stoned about it all so it seems that the final decision is out like right now. Whatever la okay I really dont want to talk about it.

Anyway a group of us made our way to Shuhua's hse after school today. Its damn ulu la okay I've never even been to that area before please. Played mahjong, watched 不良笑话 w Esther (laughed damn a lot). Skipped piano cos Sh's hse was in the middle of nowhere lor, so hard to go anywhere can. Lol. Left around 8pm.

Reached home dinner and stuff. Aiyah the usual la.
I dont know but somehow I didnt like today.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

"The same night, whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same."

One of the perks of being sick is that you dont have to wake up so early to go to school and can sleep in until the ungodly hour of 3pm. So it seems, it isn't a bad thing that you dont have to go to school after all. It is, however, great.

Spent my time online shopping(more like, window shopping), watching the first 2 episodes of Heroes season 3(!), and arranging my worksheets into 'keep' and 'throw away'. Which of course, most of the junk goes into 'throw away' as I dont think Im going to have the need for them anymore... but either way, at least the drawers look neater now.
I've been packing my clothes too and from the internet, been getting inspiration to make it all much different than before. But the fact remains that yours truly is too short of cash to make it real. One day perhaps,I'll drop by Spotlight and finally get the stuff to turn fantasy into reality. One fine day, hehe.

Okay so there's school tmr as per normal. Something that we're all so not looking forward to, Im sure.

One million wishes

"I'll miss you hehe"
"Dear girl, i will miss you too!"

K thank goodness I got a ticket to not go to school tmr. I dont knw just dont feel like going. As in really really really dont feel like going.
School was quite.. uneventful today I guess? Maybe not really but for the first day of officialy school after such a break, no one was really in the mood to study and was really drowsy and everything during first lesson today whch was Chem. It was definitely one ear in and one ear out. Im not sure if tmr wld be any different. Maybe we'd all perk up a little. Hah. But I got a feeling tmr everyone would be really sleepy. Cos like half the class is heading to Ecp to spend the night out there before going to school in the morning. But either way, Im not going to school. Yay.

Good luck to those taking your promos now(: Dont do anything you would regret! Haha.

Our Last Summer

So, I watched Mamma Mia w dad and brother just now. Its a movie like musical, like high school musical like that. Its pretty nice(: A lot of songs and dance in the show haha, it certainly looks like fun and damn, the place is beautiful there. Looks like a great place to grow up you know, really.

Spotlight & Made w love tmr! Yay.

We made our way along the river
And we sat down in the grass by the Eiffel tower
I was so happy we had met
It was the age of no regret
Oh, yes
Those crazy years
That was the time of the flower-power
But underneath,we had a fear of flying
Of growing old
A fear of slowly dying
We took our chance
Like we were dancing our last dance

When its meant to be

It was a good Friday today(:
Inter-house competitions in school and even though we aren't professionals at basketball we still managed to win one game out of the two we played. Haha yay go Seagull! Falcon won most of the games though so overall house champion, obviously.
After that went to eat lunch w half of the class and ended up watching a movie! Babylon AD. I tell you tsk, the show's effect aren't that bad but seriously it doesnt make sense at the end. Okay okay Im not going to spoil the show for you but honestly, what kind of ending is that?!?!?

Dropped by the post office on the way home and reached home & watched tv for a while and then started watching 放羊的星星. Hehe so far episode 6 already.. not bad okay haha. Got like scenes that remind me of 转角遇到爱 cos aiyah drama what. Lol. But nice, still! :D

We got one more weekend left to unwind and let go. Lets make the most out of it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VERONNNN :D Im glad you got my letter in time! I was still thinking 'shit shit what if the letter doesnt arrive in time'. Haha yay.

An idealistic situation

It is ideal to be promoted.

Main Entry:
1ide·al
Pronunciation:
\ī-ˈdē(-ə)l, ˈī-ˌ\
Function:
adjective
Etymology:
Middle English ydeall, from Late Latin idealis, from Latin idea
Date:
15th century
1: existing as an archetypal idea
2 a: existing as a mental image or in fancy or imagination only ; broadly : lacking practicality b: relating to or constituting mental images, ideas, or conceptions
3 a: of, relating to, or embodying an ideal b: conforming exactly to an ideal, law, or standard : perfect — compare real 2b(3)
4: of or relating to philosophical idealism

Freedom means you have nothing left to lose

It was Aids Aids Aids today at the National Library. You should see the stack of books my group has on Aids man! & we're supposed to like read through all of them to see if there's anything relevant. Lol. The books on Aids are one word - boring. No, make that two words - really boring. But anyway it was nice and comfy even though it was really quiet at the library haha. A good place to study I guess.
After that went to Orchard w Natasha, Shuhua, Weijia and Justin. I had piano there anyway. Walked around and saw many pretty winter coats!!! Its a pity that Singapore doesn't have the four seasons, there would be no chance to wear these coats so sad. All those winter coats reminded me of Thailand and yeah.. Oh well. Reached home around 8plus pm after that.

You know, even though the Thailand thing everyone's kinda settled about it and doesn't really want to pursue it anymore, but I guess I don't wanna give it up yet. Afterall, its something that involves the whole class, and its a once in a lifetime thing. & with that, enough said I know what Im going to do already.. After all, what's there to lose?

Its a deal then

Every beautiful instance.

I find it kinda cool, that like our whole class is going National Library to do project work together(: And its a out of school thing somemore. Haha. Okay la actually nothing big but kinda cool to me lol.

It figures that I'd be up at this time(even though I shouldnt be cos I gotta meet them early tmr). These 'holidays' for me, there'd surely be an end to it, cos inevitably, the results are gonna come and yeah everything wont be such a holiday anymore when we recieve the dreadful end of it, retaining. At that time, there wont be a happy face in the house you mark my words. So hey, Im taking it as it comes, so when that time comes, at least I wont regret doing things I wanted to do but didnt do yeah.

1.50am.

Let's take a walk.

All this stemmed from this photo Rod suddenly sent me, seems like he hasnt sent me this yet since.. I dont know really long ago. It was taken on Gradnight last year and dont we look happy(:

The happiness last time was always just spur of the moment, just about anything that'd make us laugh out loud and it makes you breathless cos you're just laughing so hard about something that in truth, wasn't that funny.
Those were the times that were so genuine, something that nothing can ever replace(: It was something in its rawest sense, that it's hard to even find a duplicate.
It was great, having the time of my life(:
Love you 4c people, we'd better have our annual chalet! :D

Off the edge.

Something to live by once you've finished something major and not knowing the outcome: Play first, think later.

And yes finally the day is here!!! When Promos are finally over but still the result remains unclear and vague but you probably have a slight inkling of whats gonna happen and I dont think there'd be any silver lining in my future):

But then again whatever.

Today had a proper class lunch w 21 out of 23 people showing up(: So proud of the class haha! Lunched at TM before heading to Marina Square. Then we split up, some of us supposedly going to movies whilst some of us went Kbox. No prizes for guessing which one I went w haha. Of course, who would pass up an opportunity to witness the insanely 'infamous' J/S in action? Haha.



We occupied much of the space in the carriage especially in front of the doors, of course earning much frowns from the public but well who cares really.

Always there in you

Im so full now man. Just had dinner w family at Centrepoint's Crystal Jade Korean Bbq, hehe. Yummy but full la lol.

I cant wait for tmr to be over and then its officially holidays(without thinking about the retaining aspect of it all that is.)

Hopes can fail and dreams can fade
Rain can fall down on your big parade
Maybe love will take your heart or break your heart
There are no guarantees

Its a call i'd never get

I had a really wonderful dream today! Pity my sister woke me up sigh. She woke me up in quite a brutal way too, she hit me w a clothes hanger!!! Its super ouch la okay lol. But the dreamm, mhmmmm. I doubt i'd dream it again so sad. Ah welll.

Woke up at 4 today(yes 4 lol, its late even by my standards tsk). Ended up being ushered to change and out of the house by 5pm cos my sister wanted to go somewhere. Carebear she says. Myg that girl's obsessed w carebears okay. Im sure if i counted those at home it'd be at least a 100!! Can you imagine if I sold them? One at least 20 bucks. Hmmmmm nice. lol me and my mother were saying, sell them when my sister's grown out of it, but it doesnt seem like happening anytime soon oh well.

I love saturdays(:

Hold on cos it'd be alright

One paper left. Omg.

So since today's Friday, Fridays shouldnt be spent at home(:

Headed to Bugis, after the Physics paper ended at a lovely time of 10am, w Shuhua, Steffi and Natasha. Got myself a lovely bracelet at Diva!!! and then we went to eat Seoul Garden when Steffi left. Seoul garden in the afternoon isnt that good an idea come to think of it. We didnt even eat that much cos it was well, lunch and we usually dont even eat lunch!

They took me to Haji lane after that(I've been never gone there before believe it or not!), and the designs and layouts of the shops are pretty but some places are freaky I dont know like can see ghosts kinda freaky lol. Most of the shops werent open so yeah I guess I didnt get the full tour yet haha. But the shops that were actually open had housed nice stuff, but really overpriced I think!! Oh welll lol first trip there la maybe next time would find some great thing inside there haha.

This goes out to Faizzah & Sihui :D
Faizzah you cut your hair again?! Lol I remember the first time I met you your hair was really long and you said you were planning to grow it long enough like touch the ground right haha! I miss sitting beside you in sec 3! & then all those staring in sec 4! So fun you know you. Haha. Miss you gotta catch up soon and you can tell me all about aherm aherm alright!
Sihui! I hope you like the surprises haha. Its nothing much though, just few pieces of paper but I hope you enjoy it (: Things come when you least expect it to haha. Miss youuuuuu, and yes we must go out soon!

Must have done something right,

My fingers are frozen, its way too cold in here! Freezing to death in front of the laptop man.
Haha. But as compared to the afternoon sun in Singapore, I'd take this anyday. Okay there I go again about the weather in Singapore but seriously man dont you prefer the rainy days? I know I do. & one of the plus side of rainy weather is that its pretty much the greatest weather to sleep in in. Lol.

2 papers left.

Physics tmr, I just have to get 30 and above cos Ive gotten my H1 already(chinese, hopefully). Its the H2 thats pulling everything down I guess. Last paper's Chem on Monday so hopefully, that one helps, if we're all in the mood to study it that is.

So so sleepy right now.

Gossip Girllllllll haha.

Been GossipGirl-ing.
Chace Crawford just looks so good in the show. HAHA.

Open seas and shores

Oh I believe,
你直得被珍惜
也直得被放弃

I just blew 48bucks away.
I hope it was worth it, and that it wasnt on impulse(I wasn't in the right mind at that time I think, I was really mad at someone). Myg. Half of my month's allowance's gone is just one week. I wonder how I always manage to end up being completely, utterly broke by the end of the month. In words of Mrs Poon, oh dear.

3 papers left.

31.99 x 1.45 = 46.39 (sigh)

Mum: -scolding my brother at the top of her lungs-
Bro: I dont know how I got so many messages! I only have 500 in my phone!
Me: -walks up to brother, and shakes his hand- Congratulations, you've broken my record of 2000 messages.

Yes omg my brother, who has NEVER ever used really used a phone to sms (he didnt even take it out before) until a few months ago, broke my sms record that got my dad so mad at me for incurring such high costs for my phone bill. He got near 3000 messages wow. For a guy who didnt message til a few months ago, that's a real big deal man. Good luck w him for dealing w my dad. He's lucky dad's overseas now tsk.

Im so glad half of chem's over. & that its chinese tmr which you dont have to study. But then Thursday's Maths which suck a lot cos my Maths is a complete failure, seriously. I cant even do binomial(not anymore I guess?).
Joy to the world man, joy to the world. Urgh.

MESSYY

K just to show you what kinda environment I 'study' in hahahaha.
Who am I kidding. LOL.

My insanely cluttered desk. Actually, this isn't the worse. During the holidays when my sister used to do her cards beside me, myg that was headache-y messy!

The space which was supposed to be empty..

Oh I believe,

GP - Down.
Econs - Conqueredddddddddddddddd

Phew. Gp was a full paper, compre and compo and after compo man, you just dont wna write anymore seriously, by the time it came to AQ I didnt wanna think anymore and just wrote half of it. Besides, its so hard to score for AQ you might as well dont write anything yah. Okay, since Econs was after Gp it was super sian already w more essays on the way. Well i know for one that econs essay was totally omg forget it. Hopefully case study wld help me. ANYWAY its over already no point talking about it now :D

It was kinda interesting today on the bus when I noticed this trolley of packages,those push carts kinda thing w 2 cardboard boxes in it. Both me and Mg had noticed the old man bringing these boxes up the bus and I thought he saw him alighting without them but then when we were on the highway I saw that the boxes were still there. We looked around to find that old man but he was nowhere to be seen on the first deck and Im sure he didnt go up to the second deck cos if he did he would have to walk past me(I was standing at the bottom of the staircase). So what else, we kept thinking that there would be a slight chance that it might be a bomb, but neither Mg or I wanted to get up and tell the bus driver or something, lazy asses haha. But I got off the bus safely and I dont think it would be anything... just some falsehood. Haha.
It didnt help that there were paper stuffed into the boxes like I dont know trying to make it soundproof? Lol. Okay, sue us, we had vivid imaginations.

Anyway, Chemistry paper 2 tmr, cant wait for it to be over man. Paper 1's on the last day of the promos so if I dont do well tmr at least I still have paper 1 to make up for it cos paper 1's on Monday after weekends so enough time I guess. If I dont do well for tmr's that is. But I heard they moderate the failures. Sounds good.

Cause I believe
那幸福不灭的定侓
你的手心，不一定要由我握紧
就像恒星，总会有发光的意义

Viva la Escadrille.

You have no idea how glad I am that my parents arent strict to the max that they lock you up once there's a major exam coming. If they did that to me,I think I'll go crazy just staying at home all the while, even if I'm not studying seriously. Thank god for dinners w lovely food hah.
Had seafood on Saturday w the extended family, grandparents grandaunts and all at some shop at Tiong bahru (its near the complex where they filmed the first part of th volleyball show on channel 8!). The cheese crab was damnnn nice la can yummm.
Today it was Ding tai fung. Yay.

Okaye so tmr's finally the day I've been dreading and cursing w every fibre in my body this entire week. Sele consulted the Book of answers(hey its really cool okay haha) just now in the afternoon for me and it was a flat out straight no for me when asked if I would promote. So yeah look, I know how things would turn out for me already. Kinda anticipated it though. But ouch, a straight no? Tsk that book.
I'm sure everyone else should be okay w that revision and everything cos they've been doing okay for the past what, 6 months? Good for them. There's nothing else I can do already so here goes nothing. Tmr's it's just wringing it with all that I've got(not much, I gather). At least I went down fighting. Hurhur.

Leaving you guys w this picture of a book I saw today at Kinokuniya.
"X, saves the world."

Spinning tumbling

Promote promote promote, dont retain.

Its Friday alright yeah, I've been staying at home this whole week except for Monday and yesterday & have made more progress than I ever did for mid years or whatever but I have a feeling its not going to be enough. What I need is more time. But thats something Im not gonna get definitely. What am I gotta do sigh.
All this is just making my head spin.

I think my table's too messy. In fact,the whole room's too messy. Once I get this stupid exams over and done w for the year,Im so going to clean it up. Yes I will. (at least i hope i will!)

This holiday sucks. And I just have to say it, that the school sucks, for putting promos so early. Yes we all knw its so that we get our results and be in time for 2nd poly intake just in case but still. This holiday everyone else can be playing, enjoying themselves while we gotta be cooped up doing such hell shitty work to get by. How terrible can this get.
Some of us dont even have the mood to study i mean look at the people around you playing having fun and everything this holiday when you mug your ass off just to be promoted.
Damn you school.

Okay I'm supposed to be studying now.
But apparently I have a really short attention span. Go figure.

"Time.."

I was out at the airport studying w Nicole and Wanfong, but of course everyone has their limits right? Yup so at the end we started talking and all and haha its nice(: I wont mind doing it again! Lol.
And that stupid song at gloria jeans' that played over and over again omg. So sick of it. Its kinda stuck in my head too myg.

Reprise.

On the winds, cross the sea
Hear this song and remember,
Soon you'll be home with me
Once upon a december.

Build me up buttercup

Even though you're not going to be seeing this(thank god cos I knw you'd hug me and everything and it'd be really weird.) but I know we've argued a few days/weeks back, in fact we argue everyday but we still stay together and I still gotta face you you know? I may get really pissed at you and tell you I hate you (when its only during that moment I feel that way) and then there'd be a cold war between us and neither of us would be happy, but still, happy belated birthday Mum.

Yesterday was the class bbq at Pingboon's house. It was supposed to be canceled cos no one was confirming my msgs so yeah kinda frustrated but Justin and Weijia arranged it on again on Saturday kinda last minute sort of thing but yeah. It wasn't exactly class bbq in more ways than one. But for one, there was only like what, 10 of us? Marianne, Joeyee, Jieying, Danny, Chicky, Mengguan, Weijia, Justin, Pingboon and I. Plus Miss Lee who joined us about 10(: Great to see her again man haha w her fiance! We're invited to her wedding this December yay.
Just sat around the "bbq pit" cooking. We were supposed to be using the manual start one you know the one where you use charcoal and everything but in the end the fire died and it couldnt start cos there wasn't enough firestarters so we used to the electric one instead which is definitely much more efficient. J's parents sent me home so yay, lol but still I reached home around 12.30am. Haha. Tired and everything luh.

Today was my sister's party. Yeah she invited her friends over to celebrate my mother's birthday, strangely enough. There's one thing I gotta conclude and its that omg she and her friends are one scary bunch of people and let me tell you, Im not easily scared by kids but boy oh boy you should see them. They are just.. mad. And scary. Really really scary. It throws the whole ideal of little kids being really sweet cherubic and innocent out the window I swear. In a bid to avoid them my brother and I both locked ourselves in his room whilst they wrecked havoc in my room (insert millions of sighs here).
I just watched The Exorcism of Emily Rose and okay luh it wasn't as scary as I've anticipated but its still kinda freaky at some parts lol. Maybe its cos Im in a room filled w loud computer gaming sounds and loud psp gaming sounds and boys screaming (aka brother and cousin) that yah its not scary. Ah welll.

And yes I know, I should be studying.

Paper faces on parade.

Last Wednesday was hilarious in spotlight w J! Haha. You shld see the video man. Real funny.

Thursday

E learning day! :D

Met J at 1pm when we were supposed to meet at 11am lol cos of some unlucky unforeseen circumstances. & we realised macs didnt have power points anymore, so we went to the CC's cafe instead where the fondue was really tempting! Sat there for quite long doing all the quizzes after overcoming the hurdle of logging onto wireless@sg cos my laptop had some complications logging into there. J had to leave early to tend her shop (or her parents',rather) so I went to meet my mum who was at Heartland Mall eating laksa! Coincidentally, Wj was eating laksa and Shuhua was craving for it that day haha. Anw yeah thats abt it. Went home, continued E learning. Managed to pass evrything cept maths. And physics which I did halfway but laptop ran out of battery so didnt complete, and chinese which file I couldnt even open.

Friday

Teachers' day and Aces day!
Aces day was damn lame at school today luh okay so all of us did it half heartedly even though we knew it'd win points for our house. But seriously even the j2s didnt bother to move. The concert's game show was funny(go Malan!), the teachrs were really game for it and lol it wasnt as bad as I thought. But when the singing part started, the front was okay then came to the other participants it was plain omg and Natasha Shuhua and I left earlier to go back to secondary school.

It was nice to be back at TK, w all the 2007 batch people! It was crazy talkng and everything haha it felt good man seriously. Saw everyone and everything and wow it was like sec 4 all over again except some of us changed but not for the worst,mostly. Ended up sitting there til around 1pm before leaving for lunch at siglap. Went to cityhall and looked around for stuff to shop but ended up w nothing much. Oh oh the mirror at Anthropology's pretty man!!! But expensive siah.

Sele and I waited for Berd until supr hungry & went to Newyork Newyork to eat. Cheeyang joined us and yeah, what else did we do but eat? But had fun people watching and stuff cos we were sitting by the outside. There was a really really huge serious jam at the walk there and it was like the literally stuck kind. Finished up around 10pm before going home w yeah loads of people thanks to the comex fair. But seriously, the comex fair sounds really promising!!!! I dont mind gg haha if I wna get something frm there, that is.

Natasha,
Esther,
Jieying,(silly stupid) Shuhua, hehe.

The really really bad jam.
Cheeyang's mad super big Giant Yankee Burger. Its really giant. And this, in the picture, is half left.

Bernard Teo unglam luh.

SCHOOL F UP.

Just because of one person, all 23 of us cant go to Thailand together.
Its not her fault we know cos she has her baby and all, but whether you like it or not, it's still essentially her fault. Its bloody unfair.
All our hardwork would be just going down the drain like that, and there's nothing we can do about it apparently? The CG camp is meant for planning and by rejecting it, inevitably, it would cause lines to be drawn in the class.
Then again, I feel that some people aren't totally commited to fighting for the CG camp. I get the vibe from them that they seriously do not care at all. CG camp is an event that includes the whole class, and by whole class that means all 23 of us, and if some of us doesnt even care, then whats the point? Its already half the battle lost. And losing half the battle means a higher chance of losing it completely. And we're already near losing completely. Not only losing this chance, but also losing ourselves in the process of being so angry, of being so frustrated.
I wont give up though. Not for the sake of the class even those who dont care. This CG camp is a once in a lifetime experience, and its a chance for the whole class to get together overseas and have no one to interact w but each other. Everyone's been looking forward to it and its unfair that everything's okay w the proposal except for the CT thing.
Being unfair to 1 CT or to 23 students? You be the judge.

We're all hating the school now. My chairman even took off his council badge in front of the teacher and resigned right there and then. Tears were even shed.

I hope their happy now.

The show's the love omg. (:
鬥牛要不要

最幸福的人往往是拥有选择的人.
"现在和你在一起, 我的世界就只有你."
离开你最后一刻, 我有很多选择.
选择静静的看著你, 但是也只能静静的看著你.
选择让两个人, 有著最心动的距离, 但是也只能隔著一时空气.
选择对你诚实,却又怕诚实会破坏你的笑容.
原来我根本没有得选.
只能在离开的最后让你记得, 我曾经为你努力过.

It matters so much.

Happy Valentine's Day you all(:

I have like,a date with my computer.Haha.Okay,so what?Its just another day yo. Even for those couples,its still just another day,except for those who cliche-y arranged their anniversary to be on Valentines Day.Lol. However cliche,they happy can already yo.

Kay,omg I wanna get new shoes.Charles &Keith yo here I come.Or Bugis street whatever. Thats what I can afford like right now?Yeah. Cant believe like a week back or so I was just major shopping with Veron having like $300+ in my wallet. Now Im left with what, 50$?Oh my. Kay so I suppose its time to save,which means that I gotta bug my mother to bring me out more often,so she'd pay hahaha.

Im off to learn textures on Photoshop. Yeah thats how bored I am,seeing that I've watching finished my Diao Man Gong Zhu. Its a nice show but the ending's stupid!!