One phone call away

Atikah: Do you know what I want to be in the future?

Me: (Matter of factly) Atikah. (pauses) Wait. No no. I know. FASTER.

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I dont think I want this anymore

As she drove away she starts to smile,

Realized she hadn't for a while.

No destination, she drove for miles

Wondering why she stayed in such denial.

Get lost please.

To someone whom Im ready to kick outta my life:

What the hell is wrong with you?! Stop trying to act as though you're such an important person to me, and stop trying to act cool. Youre not. Why cant you just do what you like to do regardless or what others think, instead of trying to conform? Seriously we'd like it a lot better if you acted like yourself I swear. There's nothing wrong with being friends with her so stop pretending youre not. Its making you seem more stupid than you already are. I cant believe I was so blind last time,I seriously walked around with both of my eyes closed when it comes to you. And stop acting like we're very close. Because newsflash, we're not. Right now I cant stand the way you treat others. Maybe they can be the ones who believe the cover that you put on yourself. But Im sorry Ive seen through you and Im not going to repeat the same mistake again.

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Im feeling more annoyed now as I think of the person okay !! Im not gonna mention names but those close may have an inkling of who Im talking about...

无可救药

Who would have guessed if they see me now that I actually used to like going to school. Even last year, for a while. But I guess not anymore. Now all I think about everything is how slow time is passing, waiting for the bell to ring, or excuses to give at the doc's for that MC that could get me out of school there and then. And how to get more than a one day MC.

I know, people say if you like what youre doing, then its likely that you're gna excel at all. Half the battle's won already if youre actually interested in what you're doing. But Im not. All I want to do these days is just grab art papers from Made with love and make a gazillion cards, anything that I can do other than to study. In the back of my mind though theres this voice that says 'study study study promos are coming.' and its like battling with another thats going 'its okay you have another route to go its not the end!' so Im feeling quite conflicted now? Haha sort of. Cos I know that since its not the end,Im not that desperate to pass promos. At least, not as much as I was a few months back when I havent actually thought of what Im going to do if I cant pass. I shouldnt because the more Im clear abt what would happen if that actually takes place (touchwood of course), the more Im letting myself feel less tensed about the final examinations.

Oh boy. 3 words. I. Am. Screwed.

Now whose with me?

Can I dont go back to school tmr?

Flight SQ334, Destination Paris.

I was at the airport sending Veron off after spending time at Starbucks (like 4 hours) studying. Or at least, attempting to because (I cant believe myself) I forgot to bring my Gc!!! And all I was intending to do was Maths. That sucks right. But at least I got a bit of chem/physics stuff in my rough-work notebook and there are still some questions of the Maths promo papers that I was able to do... at least, the ones I knew how to do. Which is pretty much only one or two questions. Oh man,we're using the calculator too much that we've become reliant on it. I was so unwilling to calculate sums of fractions even when I knew how to. Lazy huh. Haha.





Anyway we had dinner at T3's foodcourt (Ban mian ftw!) before sending Veron off into the gates to fly back to Aust.


My big bowl of banmian with never ending soup. Lol.
































Selena you phail. Lol.

I know where I'll be,

Where did Friday nights with the Blocks gooooooo.

Houston, we have a problem.

So this thing is, Ive kinda figured out what to do just in case I dont make it pass this year's criteria. After all, pass all!? Thats quite unfair okay. If its the normal criteria I wouldnt be so stressed out just cos my maths is quite failure but at least there's th 2 others to fall back on right. But anyway. Since I know what Im gonna if that happens (touchwood), Ive been feeling less stressed. Which can be kinda a bad thing cos Im still watching Heroes, Supernatural online. But its one two episodes not the full thing so... yeah.

Yeah I know, denial. Its still bad. But Im not feeling so completely tensed up just because its a week away now.

But thats still a bad thing right?

Today was an extremely extremely unproductive day.
Heroes was good though.

Murphy's law too?

Today is definitely not a good day for studying.
After hoping like one million times that it'd rain, it didnt!!! And it shined so brightly too, like in defiance. Pffft.
Hot sun = Stuffy = Headache,
Headache + Ache + Tired = EXTREMELY UNFIT to study.

Lol yup you can call this the XX Law.

Check out our battle cry

Love it when it rains!

Love, isnt love til you give it away

I want to hold your hand,

We are all taking chances right now. We dont have the psychic ability to look into the future to see whats gna happen next. We dont have the power to do that. So we cant do anything but just imagine. But half the time, imagining gets us nowhere.

I just want it all to be over, with a good result of course.

One time

Do dreams come true,

I dreamt I wasnt gonna make it.

Zomg so real.

Starts with, Goodbye

From Steffi's camera,

























WHAT A GREAT DAY TO:
1. Stay asleep under the warm blankets
2. Wear a jacket
3. Relax

Stripes and lace makes a girl happy.

It was drizzling in the morning and when Steffi and I got to the Botanic Gardens the rain had stopped but it was still kinda grey overhead, with thunder sounding so foreboding for our 'photoshoot'. Haha. But we still managed to snap a few photos before it started pouring. The umbrella was open for real not for show!!! We covered the camera w a towel to continue snapping photos haha. Okay so here are the photos from my camera, Steffi hasnt got home from dinner to send me hers.






I think the swan looks like the Loch Ness Monster/Water Horse in this picture. S30 people, remember Water horse? LOL. I bet J wld never forget it hahaha.




Setting up the tripod. Hers is so much better than mine zomg can extend one okay!


Taking a picture in a picture. (When you see the photos from her camera you'd know!)






Stuck in the rain! So we hid under a shelter haha.




Umbrella's not for show!! It was really raining.











After that we headed to Ion haha.







Their service for the taxi stands are really good. There are people in suits with gloves to open the car doors for you okay, high class or what! The shops are full of their winter collections and zomg unfairrrrrr, it would be so nice to wear clothes that are meant for winter like sweaters and boots and all. Winter is high fashion time but we just cant get that, so sad!