Fridaynightsky

And there you were.
What a sight,after not seeing you for say, 4 years? It's been exactly 4 years and 4 days since I've left. Yes,I've been counting down. Every day I've been away from you,down to the very last second.
I left that day,and it wasn't your fault. I've been selfish, but I didnt want you to worry. I didn't want you to try to stop me,because this is something I had to do. However,now,thinking back,I doubt I should have left at all. The first few months were sheer torture. Everything reminded me of you. The television,the cars, anything. I just couldn't forget you,no matter how hard I tried. I realised,in the end,that it wasn't because I couldn't forget it. It was because I didn't want to. So I gave up trying. You never left my mind,always there,but just.. not there. God knows how much I've missed you. Just looking at you through the television screen now is making me tear.
December 16, 2011. You never forgot that it was my birthday,did you. And there was proof.
"Happy birthday,Darling."
I've never cried so much in my life before.

Walking down the streets of Rome never felt the same. Knowing that you were here,right here in this place, made me look around every corner,take a second glance at every man, making sure that it wasn't you that I saw. I simply couldn't let you go,after all these years. And I knew you couldn't too. I hear people talk all the time,about the man whose famous,who never loves other woman, just likes them. Many woman has had the priviledge to say, 'he liked me', and never 'he loved me'. But I knew I could. I could say it out, with pride, 'he loved me'. For you did,didn't you. And this was solid proof. The fact that you loved no other since I left you, since I left everything that I held dear behind.
I drifted through the streets,as though in a trance. I found myself standing outside the glass walls of the famous hotel. And then you looked up. Our eyes met,and I knew then,that it was indeed you,and not some man that looked like you. Your eyes held the same expression as they did before. And as I mouthed the 3 words you loved to hear so much, you ran out the revolving doors and had me in an embrace. God,it felt so much like before.
It felt as though, I never left.


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