Never look back,we said.
How was I to know, I'd miss you so.

I havent really been at home these few days,so haven't really been updating/going online. Lol.

I just read finish HARRY POTTER & THE DEATHLY HALLOWS though.
I like it. :D



She calls me baby
Then she won't call me
Says she adores me
And then ignores me
Jenny, what the problem now?

She keeps her distance
And sits on fences
Puts up resistance
And builds defenses
Jenny, what's the problem

You leave me hanging on the line
Every time you change your mind

First you say you won't
Then you say you will
Keep me hanging on
But we're not moving on
Or standing still
Jenny, you've got me on my knees
Jenny, and it's killing me

She needs her own space
She's playing mind games
Ends up at my place
Saying that she's changed
Jenny, what's the problem

I'm trying to read between the lines
You've got me going out of my mind

Chorus

It's killing me
It's killing me
Jenny

Chorus (x2)

It's killing me, Jenny
Jenny, The Click Five

And there you were.
What a sight,after not seeing you for say, 4 years? It's been exactly 4 years and 4 days since I've left. Yes,I've been counting down. Every day I've been away from you,down to the very last second.
I left that day,and it wasn't your fault. I've been selfish, but I didnt want you to worry. I didn't want you to try to stop me,because this is something I had to do. However,now,thinking back,I doubt I should have left at all. The first few months were sheer torture. Everything reminded me of you. The television,the cars, anything. I just couldn't forget you,no matter how hard I tried. I realised,in the end,that it wasn't because I couldn't forget it. It was because I didn't want to. So I gave up trying. You never left my mind,always there,but just.. not there. God knows how much I've missed you. Just looking at you through the television screen now is making me tear.
December 16, 2011. You never forgot that it was my birthday,did you. And there was proof.
"Happy birthday,Darling."
I've never cried so much in my life before.

Walking down the streets of Rome never felt the same. Knowing that you were here,right here in this place, made me look around every corner,take a second glance at every man, making sure that it wasn't you that I saw. I simply couldn't let you go,after all these years. And I knew you couldn't too. I hear people talk all the time,about the man whose famous,who never loves other woman, just likes them. Many woman has had the priviledge to say, 'he liked me', and never 'he loved me'. But I knew I could. I could say it out, with pride, 'he loved me'. For you did,didn't you. And this was solid proof. The fact that you loved no other since I left you, since I left everything that I held dear behind.
I drifted through the streets,as though in a trance. I found myself standing outside the glass walls of the famous hotel. And then you looked up. Our eyes met,and I knew then,that it was indeed you,and not some man that looked like you. Your eyes held the same expression as they did before. And as I mouthed the 3 words you loved to hear so much, you ran out the revolving doors and had me in an embrace. God,it felt so much like before.
It felt as though, I never left.


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Thursday, July 12th,
Indeed,I fell sick. Got a green form and went home,no,wait. Not home,went to my grandmother's hse. No one was at home!! Called my mum,she didnt pick up the phone ( exercise,durh), called dad, turns out he's in Taiwan & I didnt know! Called maid,she wont be at home til 2pm or so, so went to my grandmother's hse. Thanks Cliff,Sihui,and Aiyan yeah.Lol. & anyone else who asked me to get well soon. (: Doctor gave me MC for two days, goodie. :]

I still went for tuition though. Ms Choo should be touched,haha. Thank goodness I went,it was hilarious,lol.

Friday, July 13th!, (Friday the 13th yeah.)
HARRY POTTER 5. :D Its the love,haha. Esp the duel and fireworks part.

Sele & Tang were late and Bernard & I, naturally, were giving out death threats if they caused us to miss the opening of the show. Like, give us a 100 tickets more if we missed it or something. Lol. Those two no-sense-of-direction people got lost! Impossible, those two,lol.

Dinner w/ Cliff at Swensons afterwards,turns out poking is quite good,lol!

Okay,Im still sick. Lol.

Might be watching HP again later,I dont know.Ask my dad.Lol. Okay.

First, I was in a good mood.
Then my mother had to be so unreasonable.
What the hell.
&. I'm falling sick,pfft.

But anyway, parents aside, school ended at 2.15+pm today thanks to the Speech Day. CCA Service Awards given out and other Academic awards. Congratulations to the prizewinners :]

Ate out and stayed out today. Oh yay.

There are some things in life that are quite unexplainable. Like,how a mother can lift a whole car up just to save her son from being crushed. Or any other thing,that are cant really be explained.
You can argue with someone,and yet a few moments later,happy and as though nothing has taken place.
And then,its all peachy again. Why? I dont know,dont ask me.


You were the one who I could tell my deapest fears
And you were the one who always wiped away my tears
When he hurt me you were my prince straight from above
Like a fool I never saw you were falling in love
So now I've lost everything cause now you say you're gone forever more
So who will I..
Who Will I Run To?, Kiley Dean

500th post,lol.

Disney's the love,right Sihui? :]



The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself in center
Clarity, peace, serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

The path that I'm walking, I must go alone
I must take the baby steps till I'm full grown, full grown.
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds

But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself in center
Clarity, peace, serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry
Big Girls Don't Cry, Fergie.

Friday, 6 July
Typical school day,cept that we tried ( keyword: tried) to tried Mrs Neo w/ the suntan lotion box. Lol. Zhiyi put it on his table,and tried all ways to get Mrs Neo to take notice of it. I think she saw,but just ignored it,oh well. Physics remedial after school was quite.. typical-physics? Sihui and I were complaining about how tired we were,and how terribly unappealing Physics was.

Mrs N: .. Then we'll call it a day.
Me & Sihui: A day. -get ready to pack-

After that,went to Cliffton's house & watched Mindhunters. :D Cool show. Lol. The domino part was damn cool,I swear. & hippo! :D


Dinner at Fish&Co w/ Cliffton & Amirul afterwards!


Then went to sit down at TCC, to just talk. My iced cafe latte w/ a lot a lot a lot of sugar. Oh god.

Sugar + Coffee = No sleep.
But it was fun. :D

TODAY,07.07.07,
The date's cool,lol.
It was pouring cat and dogs when I left the hous,and still raining heavily when I reached school. So I was kinda drenched when I stepped into the lab,lol. Such a cold day. Cold,but still nice la. It's been better than the previous day,so hot!
Off for dinner later :]
Seeya.

Its easy to assume how things would turn out if you've never tried it. Then again, assuming is one of the biggest mistakes that you would make. You can assume that it would be simple to just complete a certain task, or do a certain thing. Or even, assume that what one person is thinking the same way you do.

That's where you are wrong. Most of the time,you really wouldn't know until you've really asked him/her what they think. The worst part is: They try to cover up by telling you the opposite. The truth hurts,yes, but sometimes,the thing that you really want to know most is their most honest opinion, however hurtful it might be. They can tell you once,that's enough. The second time,you can endure. But as you go along with your thing, and they keep telling you that they do not think you've done it the right way, it's definitely going to hurt.

Especially since its the ones closest to you that doesn't support you,that doesn't help you along.

It would sure as hell hurt.

On a brighter note, it's good to get English and Chinese oral over with.

Have I mentioned that I hate my physics tuition? Yeah. So boring,pfft.

Saturday, 30 Jun.
Field of Dreams - A Tribute to the National Stadium.

The torch,which they lighted up.
The soccer field! Go Singapore. :D
Lovely sunset.
GO SINGAPORE. From supporting Australia at the start,we decided that it was time to change sides,as we cannot NOT support Singapore,lol. It was very exciting I swear. Everytime it was close to the goal,we would stand up and starting cheering,haha.
The pretty fireworks! By far the nicest picture I took of them okay.

& the party begins. :D The lights very pretty.