Fridaynightsky

Dear Diary,
I knew it more than ever. Its blatantly, obviously over. There's nothing more that I can do. I can't even lie to myself now... Everything was but a passing dream. A foolish wish. We can't get back to the way we were, could we. Cos we fell again. Fell down into the dark abysses of lies & illusions. Truths no longer exist in this reality & all that's left is the pain, the shells of our past selves. A dream we can't get again - the nightmare.
We can't find our way out of this labyrinth of deceptions. Every corner turned lies a hidden face behind it. An uncovered truth, a single question. Why? That question haunts our minds & yet no one answers it. Why are we drifting apart? Why do we have to split? Why did it turn out this way? Why do I have to stay strong? Why, can't I cry? Oh, diary, I've never felt so... dejected, so abandoned before. As though even if I would move away & start a new life, I wouldn't hesitate at that chance, because there's nothing more to be worthy of leaving behind for me. The pain, the agony of knowing that it was over.
I just want to cry.
I should have known better.
xoxo,
Kahlia.

Going out soon. Right about.. now.
Seeya.