new items

your taking one step forward and then two steps back.

if all the raindrops were lemon drops and gum drops
oh what a rain that would be
standing outside with my mouth open wide
ahh ahh ahh ahh ahh ahh ahhh
if all the snowflakes were candy bars and milkshakes
oh what a rain that would be
standing outside with my mouth open wide
ahh ahh ahh ahh ahh ahh ahhh

this song has been stuck in my head today. HAHA.
ok, here are my stuff. regret man. i feel quite shameful for winning. plus e material so lousy. some of the things got crack. and they scratch the wall while moving up the stairs. my dad'd gonna scream. and get really really mad. and its not a pretty sight to behold. SIGH.






so pink right!? urgh.

cant stand it.
seriously cant stand it.
really really cant stand it!
but gotta live with it.
sigh. ok. ppl. dont laugh at me.

on a lighter note, while i was packing my stuff, i was thinking about going to KL with friends. dont know whether can. my mother say must see results, so does everyone else's. i sigh again. bah. sighing would make you grow old faster, dad always say. but i cant help it! see! i just sighed! urgh. back to topic, i was thinking about what things to bring, and i told mary, "when go malaysia i sure dont wash my clothes one." LOL. true wad. i'll be too lazy to do so, or too busy playing to do so. either one, i wont do it. ok, maybe i will. but i just hope we can go, and someone's parent (kaylie's mum rocks! so she is the only parent we would allow to go with us. lol.) could go and chaperone. cos one of the really obvious conditions we need to go is parent going. yay! so, asked ppl are: me; pau; mavis; kaylie; selena; nicole; wanfong; imee; pam. yeah! and kaylie's mum. x) KL and Genting hor. rocking places with rocking arcades and theme parks. thats life! but must, once again, to burst the happy bubble i am being encased in, must see results. damnit.

proven

thats what you say, but does it change anything at all? no.

i'm smarter than my sis when i was young. -smirks- and i can prove it. haha. check out my music part in my report when i was 2 years and 7 months old:

"Xiao Xuan is able to imitate and follow spoken instructions for a single movement, eg. putting hands on knees. She sings a lot more nowadays and takes part in singing with her friends and making song requests. She enjoys moving about, with the ribbon stick or bells, to tape music."

haha. this part i definitely smarter than my sis le. -smirk- i rock.
today hor, very scary! got back progress report for term 3 and term 4 combined. well. quite low la. over 60 but below 65. all subjts improved cept chinese, science and dnt. surprising, dnt. hai. my mother din say anything. but i think she quite ok with my maths cos above 65 (by 0.6!!) and also above average. then she din say anything already. then she ask my why my chi so lan (i almost failed for term 4!) then i dont know what to say, cos say ting xie got very very low and din go makeup she'll kill me, so i told her that my zuo wen not good. then she say got the ying yong wen to refer wad. then i tell her that teacher got give us notes, but she made us stick the notes and the zuo wen book and then she keep the book, so we dont have the notes.. yeah. thats wad i told her. but its true wad. lao zhao got like that one wad. so how we study our zuo wen like that!? hmm!??
and, most probably me and nicole same class. cos our percentage is almost the same. yeah. and its not only one mark away. its 0. something marks away. cool huh.
and i sure fail art one! come on la, my black ppr got NOTHING on top ok! i repeat, NOTHING! not a single dot. mine and pau's. we both die together. haha.
anyway, the bedroom set is coming today. from 2pm to 5pm they deliver. i only take three items, and its MY prize. what shit is this. total nonsense! cant stand it. at least sell can mke money. but for free!? nooo! but lei, my mother pai seh then give one. urgh.
feel like eating macs now, and dont feel like studying. only at night then got the mood to study. so why cant school be at night? it'll be better. we wouldnt be so sian and sleepy. and dont have to wake up soo early!
happy children day to those kids out there. enjoy while u can.
i admit, with much reluctance, that going to school is good. its an escape for me. serious.

sneaking around

oh, peach. why did you change back once you pulled yourself together? is pulling yourself together a bad thing or what?

ok, today i found out a lot of things. interesting ones. like some really complicating stuff. and nicole made it even MORE complicating. haha. but it brings colour to life. if not, life would just be black and white and we would all be fishing right now. that'll be even more boring than it is now! and it IS already very sian.
i just went to pinkisthenewblog and then saw this really lookalike pic of kim stewart and nicky hilton. really like twins. even more than nicole and jasmine.



really like hor! its freaky.. really really freaky. i'm actually banned from the computer u know. but i just couldnt help it. i have to come online or i'll die. i just got to type something! thats why i'm typing here now. talking about.. nonsense. unrelated stuff to schoolwork.
oh, btw. today's hilary duff's bdae. cheryl kept repeating it til we go crazy. and today, on the way to dnt. nicole asked cher who hilary spent the day with. cher din know what spent was. she like, cannot hear properly like that. she kept asking. even when we spell it out she still dont know. it was really super duper funny. esp when nicole hit cher's head for being so deaf. LOL. so afternoon 2 to 3 was spent with miss nah. and a lil bit of miss ang. me, sele and munshi asked miss ang whether we should go combined science or double science. for me, miss ang was like, i dont know la. maybe double science should be possible. or something like that was what she said. around that meaning la. then for sele is pure science, which is either double or triple science. when munshi asked, flat out is combined science. fullstop. just like. "combined science." dots. but she said depends on us. whether we are good in humanities or not lorh. then when miss nah that time, i asked her if we should take lit. she said that if i had an interest in it, i should take it. okay.. and can be useful for being a journalist. ah, that one me and sele interested in. and next year if take lit, would be taught by mrs poon. aw, damn. then if skip drama cannot siam her le.. die. but luckily not miss puja. miss puja is seriously more fierce. when scold that time right, like all hell break lose like that. if not, ok. but then, both ways, they're drama teachers. hais. so both ways also die. nooooo! i think i should stop here. just in case my mum chooses to wake up soon. kay. see ya!

depending on us and not saying thank you? how very nice of you.

making choices

today had crush. hm. it was.. COLD. very cold. lol.
once again, attacking selena was on my list of things to do. she dared me ytd. so i did. and when she pull out her shirt, all the erasers went tumbling. even inside her bra. haha. too bad.
i cant wait for exam to be over! chalet. i asked my mum today. she just said,"ok, go lorh." like that! i was sooo surprised. so i kept askin her, "like that, just like that?" then she said more enthu, "go lorh!" lol. it was funny. then i kept screaming to my sis the chorus of fang shou yi bo. haha. fun!



which one better?? maybe ipod nano? cos desgin nicer. i've been thinkin abt that the whole of ytd! lol, yes, i've been thinking abt it even before exam started and before i even save enuf money to buy. LOL. yes, i know i'm siao and wishful, but hey, it wont hurt to dream would it?
today was supposed to c miss nah but din bring the ppr so c her also for nth. me and sele. haha. so we tmr then c her. better. n must rmbr to bring the thing. have i mentioned how boring school is? hais. really. boring like siao. cept for some things, like PE, and softball batting is fun. today my team is batting lorhs. so we bat. it was sooo fun. and then we fielding that time was sooo sian. fiona they all take very long to decide who bat one. so when they take sooo long, i went to bat one time. and two times mavis throw i missd, and when kevin threw the ball from the side i hit it, finally. lol. somemore aiming good aim to mavis there in the center. and one more thing, we're quite good at fielding too but fielding isnt fun at all. yup. we caught the ball and out-ed four ppl from the other team! cool right? i enjoyed saying, "OUT!" to them. haha.
after exam me, nic, wf, cher, mavis, pau, and pam maybe going out. that thurs. the day when georg ppr. 12 october 2005. wanna watch corpse bride/brothers grimm. well.. i know what i want to watch....






it'll be nice!! haha. cant wait. for exam to be over. its gonna be fun. how i wish i would not get the results. and that they would only show what u qualify for. it'll be great and happier for all of us. so that we wouldnt know our DEVASTATING results.

in an oven

today was like being in an oven. serious. the outside air even felt like aircon compared to these!
ok, my science sucks. and my maths! one mark away! just one freaking mark!
hey! i was talking to my mother and she happened to glance at the computer screen and see what i wrote above.

mum: dont talk this type of nonsense stuff!
me: what!? i where got talk nonsense!

then she left. parents, bah! she comes in again with a cup of water.

mum: i told you to go and take water! (looks at super duper messy table) i told you to keep the things on the table! off the computer and make an effort!

nag nag and nag more. sian le. i'm soo used to it le. irritating. complaining now. haha.
oops. my voice sounds so wierd. skarly tmr i go to sch that time i have no voice le. which is super super super bad news. i cant survive without talking! uh oh. must live with it! hais. not good.
my toe hurt the entire day. i din noe my shoe was so tight this morn. i was practically fainting from the pain. ok, fine. i'm exaggerating. but true! it was really very painful. did i mention what happened? well. i was at tiff's house swimming when i stubbed my toe on the stupid ledge while swimming. it hurt la, but after a while the pain subsided. then no prob. however, when i got out of the water, reached my cousin's bathroom, on the third lvl. it was bleeding like siao. really. the floor got blood la. and my toe was so bloody and red. so, the floor had splotches of red on the floor lorhs. and i washed it away. thats all. the end. haha. i copy my sister one. she was telling a whole story and her voice was like imitating diff people. and then she suddenly say normally "the end". really very very funny. my bro and i was laughing like siao.
ge dou tian wang rocks! i wanna go and watch the show now, since my dad din lock it up or something. i know my house so well that i surely can find it if he hide it. come on la! i lived in this house for ten years le. only the furniture change from time to time. sian! after i blog finish then i go watch le!

open arms - 5566
Lying beside you, here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper, you're so sincere
How could our love be so blind
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side
So now I come to you, with open arms
Nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping you'll see what your love means to me
Open arms
Living without you, living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you, wanting you near
How much I wanted you home
But now that you've come back
Turned night into day
I need you to stay

eraser day

i need erasers. lol. i've been cutting mine up til its almost gone. and of cos, not to mention, throwing it at sele and trying to aim it down her shirt. today throw also cant go down sele's shirt, plus ms nah eye damn sharp one, dont dare to throw, so i took the remaining and dumped it down sele's shirt when school ended. LOL. it was fun! i'm childish, yes whatever. i wouldnt like to grow up you know. i like being a kid.
anyway, cos have to wait for my mother, who was late as usual on fridays, i went to the library with nicole and hongyong cos they have to take their spelling. it was so funny. esp one part where hongyong was taking the spelling and the word was sanitary. ms nah was like, giving hints on our ah-hem, so that he would get it, she made it sooo obvious but he still didnt get it! then we started laughing. and then hongyong kept complaining abt mary grosvenor. haha. the pregnant one, he said, and then he imitated her saying 'dont make me mad cos i am pregnant.' it was sooo funny! and nicole's spelling. the word: labyrinth. ms nah pronounce she dont know how to write. so hongyong and i kept pronouncing it in funny ways, and ms nah was like, shhh, dont pronounce wrongly. LOL. nicole still didnt get it. she spelt it as labryn. lol. until a while then she finally got it. haha.
besides, i draw the art today until want to die le! halfway already like having neckache. and i only started dotting. damn. hate art. urgh.
went to centrepoint today to go sign the delivery thingy for that prize i won. the disney bedroom set. my mother was even asking the lady, xueling, whether anyone of her colleagues want to buy it anot. wlau. i win one lei, why cant i make the decision. urgh. she even said that she could sell it at half price.. which is : 2,250. which is, also, a lot. but not worth for ALL! at least i want the cupboard and the cabinet. which is, by the way, two diff things. haha.
the bazaar thingy.. first is photograph + hair + backdrop + makeup. now want to add in nails!? siao! no offence la, but i kinda think its a dumb idea.

rainbow!

red is the colour that my cheeks go,
when i am embarassed, you know.
orange is the colour of the rising sun,
starting a day full of fun!
yellow is the colour when the sun's in the sky,
i wish, through the clouds, i could fly.
green is the colour of the brillant nature,
trekking through the woods screaming, yes sir!
blue is the colour when i am down,
only then would i frown.
indigo is the shade before my favourite,
to the end we go, kicking up dirt.
violet is the last, somewhat like purple,
oh violet beauregard, your a blueberry girl!

the rainbows

today was fun and sian. the lessons were sian, as usual. and no spelling somemore. make me learn this morn hais. plus lit also nv hand up the bear ws. then i do this morn until like siao for wad.. hai. at least dont have to do le. phew.
the fun part was the fun. LOL. it was the part where i threw erasers down sele's shirt, as usual. haha. [ to sele: hey! if u werent my bestfren i wouldnt do this to you kay! so you should be honoured! ] of cos, to the rest, dont be too sad that i dont do this to you! x) though i throw at pratically everyone. cos i was sooo bored! another fun thing was huiting's. when she was sitting down, her wallet dropped out of her pocket. mind you, it was when she was sitting down. me and pau crept to get her wallet. i got it first, and huiting din even know, and threw it to pau. pau hid it. huiting din noe til serena told her. and she came looking for me. so i showed her my bag and all, and of cos, she din find it. until reccess time then she realised it was with pau. slow! haha. then after reccess before mdm goo came in. cher and i attacked her with sweets. it was actually waikit. then me and cher. then jiahao. haha. it was sooo funny!
during english me and wanfong were comparing who minus less marks. of cos she win la! aiyoh. but hey, it was like, only one mark away. theres gonna be a maths consultant session on saturday. if i go for that, then when i come home i have tuition. SIAN! whole day study. cant stand that kind of thing.
the ge dou tian wang guess wad episode i watch until? 18! yes, 18. it was nice mah. once watch cant stop. though i stil managed to study my lit in the parts where it was so boring, like the ye you li and duan yu qiao parts. sian!

in my friends' names

TRUE?

Nicole
Energetic and courageous you stand up for your beliefs and for what you desire. You are independent, strong willed and fiercely competitive when needed although your ambition is tempered with patience. You maintain a positive attitude and with a more organized or practical approach to life material success is very likely. Your immensely loving and generous nature brings joy into peoples lives and ensures your happiness.
Victorious people: Greek

Cheryl
You have enormous vitality and originality making you a dynamic individual with great charm and sex appeal. You believe in putting one hundred per cent into all your activities of which there are many. You have potential to achieve great success in business or public affairs where your friendship and consideration of others wins you many allies. Your innate strength and determined effort is able to overcome any obstacles. Freedom is important to you.
Love: Welsh

Paulina
Very much the individual you have enormous energy and vision and must find a suitable use for your talents. You have great potential for success in business if you can guard against indecision and worry. Your generous nature means that you are never short of friends and with cooperation your relationships can be very rewarding. Perseverance and firm decision making will ensure you achieve your objectives.
Small: Latin
(small! your name means small!? LOL.)

Wanfong
You have enormous vitality and originality making you a dynamic individual with great charm and sex appeal. You believe in putting one hundred per cent into all your activities of which there are many. You have potential to achieve great success in business or public affairs where your friendship and consideration of others wins you many allies. Your innate strength and determined effort is able to overcome any obstacles. Freedom is important to you.
(yours is the same as cheryl's!)

Mavis
You have leadership ability and with your power of expression can be an influential speaker. Organisation or management would suit you. Your energy, intellect and creativity overcome any challenging situations and assure your future success. Certainly with your emotions under control there is nothing which you cannot achieve. Your faith and vitality means that love and prosperity are naturally attracted to you.
Mirth, joy: Irish
Song thrush: French

Munshi
Versatile, intelligent and artistically talented. You love to enjoy yourself and tend to experience a happy domestic life and material success. You have a methodical and thorough mind and are able to organise large projects easily. Charming and likeable and with more than your share of sex appeal you tend to find yourself in the spotlight and much admired by others. Life is more fun with you around.
OR
Kaylie
You are fairminded, wise and peaceloving and are always willing to help others. Your mental capabilities and creativity are well marked with wonderful and original ideas which you need to bring to tangible fruition. Perceptive and understanding of others your positive approach to life and influential nature means that you have leadership qualities. There is great potential for success both financially and spiritually.
Rejoicing: Greek
(so which one more suits munshi;kaylie?)

Selena
Balanced and fairminded you possess the ability to use sound reason and judgement when determined and decisive action is required. Persuasive and logical you tend to be an influential figure in your circle of friends and associates. You are extremely adaptable and this is necessary as you seem to be continually being presented with decisions of a life altering nature.
Moon: Greek
Heavenly: Latin

Pamela
You are charming, talented and have a very positive attitude to life so it is hardly surprising that you attract success and recognition. Focussed and patient you understand that material rewards are a result of discipline. Being so creative and with a need for self-expression you may be drawn towards the arts, travel is also likely to be important. A loyal friend, you are a person who must be allowed freedom and independence.
A loving person, all honey : Greek

2 days ltr

yup. its true. i dont believe in love. it only breaks ur heart and hurts you, as seen from certain people.. bad thing. now, moving on!
seeing sele's blog today made me laugh like siao. cos ytd i was sooo bored that i went and cut my eraser and threw it at her. at first, it was to throw at nicole to wake her up. then started throwing at selena. as sele said, my aiming is damn good. haha. one time throw in her ear, the other time in her eye and thrice down her shirt. somemore i sitting two seats away, diagonally across and behind somemore. haha. it was all done in the name of fun. but the finale.. pau putting a whole lot of eraser down her shirt! HAHA. pau just pulled and poured all down sele's shirt. i couldnt stop laughing!
today was such a sleepy day. not until noon everyone want to sleep le. the only fun thing was softball. its sooo fun! esp batting. the georg test today, well, not so bad, but everytime i say not so bad would be hard. lol. forget it.
i just remembered.. swan princess! i was hearin the song without having an inkling of what swan princess wad. then, suddenly, i just rmbred. cool. i want to watch ge dou tian wang! but my mother dont let me watch cos once i watch i wouldnt stop. its so nice! that brings me to something else i did today. me and pau did the we ying qi and xiao kui the jiayou jiayou jiayou thingy. it was sooo fun! when reach the jiayou part i couldnt do cos i was too busy laughing le. we did it before georg test. next time exam we also can do, cos we sit next to each other. but next yr.. nvm. dont talk about such things when the yr isnt even over! oh well. it was fun and funny. lol.
i love my mum's snake game.

i am a teenager pushing her tears aside